The email message I want to send but won't...
Its hard for me not knowing you quite well enough to know what you are thinking. I thinks that's only because we communicate by text and I can't read your body language to interpret how you react to things I say and do.
Maybe its just me, but I feel that you are annoyed with me for what happened with K. Not that anything really happened. She told me that she loves you dearly, but isn't attracted to you. Something you already knew. I told her that you were aware that she wasn't attracted to you and she replied that you were a good man and that's why she doesn't "play" with you. (Her own words.) I felt bad about it because she told me that she hoped that I hadn't made her do something which would give you the wrong impression. As if I could make her do anything. :P
Maybe you love her more than you love me, and that is understandable too.
I should probably not tell you this, and I most likely won't send this to you anyway, so it doesn't really matter.
I came incredibly close to leaving my husband earlier this year as you know. I was debating where to go if I did leave, and the pros and cons of each. One of my destinations was you. However, I knew that if I did go to you, and things did happen, I wouldn't go back to my husband and I wasn't really ready for that.
I am very attracted to you and incredibly fond of you. Probably beyond fondness and bordering on "love". Which is not really a good position for a married woman to be in... and given that I don't know how you really feel about me (you play your hand very close to your chest) kinda frustrating. I'm not planning to seduce you or do anything about it. I just thought you might like to know.
My husband had this conversation with LJ when they were chatting in the US. She wants him, and he is interested, but both of them behaved themselves.
I'd like to have this conversation with you. Maybe we've already had it in code and it makes more sense to you than me. I don't like not knowing where I stand. Though by telling you all this, you might not want to speak to me any more... and it will change the dynamic of our relationship. I don't know if I want that either. Complications I can do without.
Hmmmm
Maybe its just me, but I feel that you are annoyed with me for what happened with K. Not that anything really happened. She told me that she loves you dearly, but isn't attracted to you. Something you already knew. I told her that you were aware that she wasn't attracted to you and she replied that you were a good man and that's why she doesn't "play" with you. (Her own words.) I felt bad about it because she told me that she hoped that I hadn't made her do something which would give you the wrong impression. As if I could make her do anything. :P
Maybe you love her more than you love me, and that is understandable too.
I should probably not tell you this, and I most likely won't send this to you anyway, so it doesn't really matter.
I came incredibly close to leaving my husband earlier this year as you know. I was debating where to go if I did leave, and the pros and cons of each. One of my destinations was you. However, I knew that if I did go to you, and things did happen, I wouldn't go back to my husband and I wasn't really ready for that.
I am very attracted to you and incredibly fond of you. Probably beyond fondness and bordering on "love". Which is not really a good position for a married woman to be in... and given that I don't know how you really feel about me (you play your hand very close to your chest) kinda frustrating. I'm not planning to seduce you or do anything about it. I just thought you might like to know.
My husband had this conversation with LJ when they were chatting in the US. She wants him, and he is interested, but both of them behaved themselves.
I'd like to have this conversation with you. Maybe we've already had it in code and it makes more sense to you than me. I don't like not knowing where I stand. Though by telling you all this, you might not want to speak to me any more... and it will change the dynamic of our relationship. I don't know if I want that either. Complications I can do without.
Hmmmm
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