What now?

Its been a week.. well over a week since I last posted here. Things have been relatively good. Despite the old saying 'Absence makes the heart grow fonder' it didn't seem to work in this case.

I didn't deliberately, but it worked out that way, contact my friend from Wednesday until Sunday. He was busy Wednesday and wasn't on-line that night. On Thursday and Friday I wasn't online or at work to speak to him. Saturday he was doing overtime and I was visiting my parents and Sunday I finally found him. The break has done my psyche and heart some good.

I guess it also helps that my husband has been relatively stable. I say relatively because on Tuesday or Wednesday he lost it briefly. Him losing it was justifiable, the computer crashed losing him an hour of graphics work. But I didn't need the sudden shock and fear of him crashing to the ground again. Thankfully, it didn't last too long and we could move on with our life.

I know that he denies it, but all his pent up frustration, self loathing and stuff is just simmering beneath the medicated mood at present. Yesterday when we were chatting about what we'd do if we were richer... a lot richer, he said that he'd be off the medication and happy. I tried to explain, and I hope he understood, that the happiness from not having to worry about things financially, would only be temporary. He knows that he has to deal with the underlying issues... but has not yet done so.

Things will improve. I hope.